Sunday, March 30, 2008

Give Big

Well, it's been a great weekend. I have had fun, and hopefully helped others as well. I came home this afternoon after keeping Doug and Ali's kids depressed and upset that I'm home again by myself. As most people know, I would love to be married and later have kids. However, I am learning slowly, that God has something else planned. Tonight, I am just laying around and watching Oprah's Big Give. I love this show, but I have found myself sitting on the coach watching it and doing nothing. It's a movement- to give, love others even unknown people, and server and be humbled. What am I doing, sitting here- NOTHING!

While watching this, I thought about how many people see what God gave us, but still sit there unchanged. Wow- God sent Jesus Christ to Give Big---the biggest gift ever. It's motivating to live for that love that Christ gave and shared. He wasn't judgemental, prideful, or picky with who He gave too. He gave everything He had. I want to give like that.

I don't have the money like Oprah's Big Give- I'm far from being God. However, I have Jesus living in me- and I'm going to live more like it. I'm going to give to the world and not look back. I'm going to remind myself daily to put others before myself. I don't want it to be a 40 day challenge, but a lifestyle. God's blessings are poured in me daily and I want to see that others see His love.

It's time not to take but to give and give BIG! Anybody want to join me? Let's change together, and even more pour this throught Mobile.

Wednesday, March 26, 2008

Gotta start . . . .

Wow- I don't know why this is scary for me, but I am truthfully very scared to enter the blog world again. I have so many thoughts that rush through my head twenty-four hours a day that hopefully this will help clear some, so maybe I can sleep. Oh wait, that would be that the blackberry is off- oh well i thought there was hope.

Anyway, so here I go with the blog world again. I pray that seriously though anyone that reads this sees the real me through this. I have been told way too many times lately that I have changed, and I'm not myself. I'm sorry guys, thank you for keeping me going! I don't like who I have become. I don't like this life I am living right now and can assure you that it is going to change.

God is teaching me five things right now through "Believing God" Beth Moore Bible Study. I can't imagine taking this journey without such good friends. It's amazing how God brought us back together.

Anyway, God is pouring into me that:

1. God is who He says He is.

2. God can do, what He says He can do.

3. I am, who God says I am. ((((Yikes)))))

4. I can do all things through Christ.

5. God's word is alive and active in me.

Anyway, I praying that as I am reminding myself of these ever day, thinking out them throughout the day, and quoting them in those rough and tough moments that I will live them. Right now, I am not living as God is who He says He is in my life, nor am I trusting Him to do the things He says he can do. Not to mention, I am not believing Him when he shows and tells me what He sees me as. How drastic would my life be, if I lived this out? WOW- I want to live like that, I want to be the person that Christ says I am. I want to live and breath in Him and not be depressed and stressed out with this world as I am living now. I desire God's word to be alive in me, not to mention the fact that I want to feel alive instead of chained to something I'm not.

Please pray that I live by these truths.

I'm ready for the ride that God has before me. I'm looking forward to proclaiming that all of my chains are gone. Several years ago, I was able to sing of God's amazing grace as I accepted His love for me. Today, I am so humbled by that love for me. I want to live it out and be able to tell and show others. I just have a few things that I'm chained too. However, God can do what He says He can do. And my God can move mountains and He is about to move me! Whew, with tear filled eyes I'm ready.