Tuesday, May 27, 2008

A New Day

I have loved this verse for some time. I am crawling in the bed, and I can rest tonight even with everything going on, because I know God is with me. I know He has saved me. It's very hard to remember, when I am always being told something different but He does take great delight in ME! He loves me enough to quiet my frustrations and bitterness, complaints, and problems with His love. And I don't even have to wait for a husband to sing over me, b/c He rejoices that way over me.

His merices are new every morning!
Praise God that even when I don't see the light within any situation---God is there! He is the Light! I don't have to carry the burdens alone. Please pray that I rest tonight remember this, not just believing it this moment but through the week and the storms and mountains that come up every day!

Sunday, May 25, 2008

Lord please MOVE, or Move me

I can't find the words to pray, I'm a little down today
Can You help me, Can You hold me?
I feel a million miles away, And I don't know what to say
Can You hear me anyway?
What I need is for You to reach out Your hand
You have taught me no matter what You'd understand
Lord move in the way, that I've never seen before
Cause there's a mountain in the way and a lock on the door
I'm drifting away, waves are crashing on the shore
So Lord move or move me.
I've looked every where to find a simple peace of mind
But, I can't find nothing on my own
So I gotta leave myself behind, take up this cross of mine
Give away everything I hold onto
Lord I know the only way is through this
But Lord, I know I need You to help me do this
Lord move in the way, that I've never seen before
Cause there's a mountain in the way and a lock on the door
I'm drifting away, waves are crashing on the shore
So Lord move, or move me. Out of this place of complacency
To a place of fellowship with Thee' Cause I am weak, but Lord, You are so strong
And You know it's been way too long It's been way too long
Lord move in the way, that I've never seen before
Cause there's a mountain in the way and a lock on the door
I'm drifting away, waves are crashing on the shore So Lord move or move me!

Wednesday, May 21, 2008

Ring Ring

Ring Ring, Ring Ring, Ring Ring . . . . . . .
What happened in the old days? Did people really live without the Blackberry? I know of some people today, who couldn't! I am afraid that I am quickly becoming one of them since I can't sleep without waking up five or six times a night to see if the red light is flashing. Yeah, I know there are meds for people like me and I am checking those out! I'm on call this week so it's a little different b/c right now it is 2:48am! Again---- I have found myself in the same spot as lastnight. Sitting on my bedroom floor, with my laptop waiting and watching for the blackberry to either flash or ring so I can follow up with a customer. No, that isn't normally the case, but we are having to fix some things and so David, our Networking manager does the work between 12-2 (and there after as long as it takes). So I am have been on the phone with customers that call in during that time!
So here are my thoughts, while I wait. Which by the way, might I got ahead and add, waiting is something I hate. I mean seriously those are the times you want to move the most. A friend of mine several years ago wrote me a letter in a time while I was waiting that was so true. In those moments when we are called to "Be Still and wait" You have ten hundred other things that you want or feel you need to do,,,,all in that split second. That's how I feel right now, not only in this minute am I waiting, but in this time in my life. God is telling me wait---wait ----wait a little longer. . . . . .and again I hear wait, while I hear door after door close. I daily am choosing and reminding myself of my choice to wait on Him. I am choosing to wait to see his will for each day with my personal life and then plans He has for me with friendships, relationships, work, church, family, etc. There are serisouly choices I make every day to wait on Him......
So from one bouncing thought to another: (sorry that is what happens when I write at almost 3 am) I wish my life were sometimes more like the Blackberry........Always connected! Right now the very thing that keeps me from being connected, is what I am connected to the most. Does that make sense? Would I get it if God sent me text messages and emailed me with alerts? In this moments while I wait God moves! Here lately, I have lived as if that is the way He is going to speak to me. I have wrapped myself so much into a machine and communication device that the red flash has become the beat of my heart instead of God's word and breath.
I pray you move, or move me!

Tuesday, May 13, 2008

In the waiting...

Pain -The gift nobody longs for, still it comes And somehow leaves us stronger When it's gone away

Pray -I try and pray for Your will to be done But I confess it's never fast enough for me

It seems the hardest part is waiting on You When what I really want is just to see Your hand move

I want a peace beyond my understanding I want to feel it fall like rain in the middle of my hurting I want to feel Your arms as they surround me And let me know that it's okay to be here in this place

Resting in the peace that only comes In the waiting

Time - Time to let it go and just believe Trusting in what no one else but You can see

Free - Freedom from the fears that close me in When I can't get beyond where I have been

But then again The silence doesn't mean that I'm alone As long as I can hear That I am still Your own

In the waiting...

I'm so glad God calls me His own and that all of these millions of thoughts, feelings, ideas, and emotions: I can trust in God with!