Saturday, September 19, 2009
Our backyard and gazbo during the storm.
Monday, August 31, 2009
It's not a hidden fact I don't like to wait and well I've done a lot of it over the past two years, but I'm so glad I'm seeing God's hand work throught it. Wednesday night I was able to go to Glory Revealed and had an awesome time of fellowship and worship. The service was wonderful!!If you haven't heard of Glory Reaveled, check out there website, www.gloryrevealed.com. It's the word of God put as worship songs to make it easy to learn, site and worship through. It's been a huge part of my life as this is there second CD, and I've almost memorized all of the scriptures on the CD's. Anyway, Great things are yet to come and I'm super excited about DNO.
Tuesday, July 28, 2009
Monday, July 27, 2009
Saturday, July 11, 2009
Saturday, June 6, 2009
Sunday, May 31, 2009
She is just one person but I can think of a bunch of others that ask questions and make you go, really are you asking me this?
Moving in the house I am use to questions. I have ask a millon and wish i would have ask a thousand others (electric or gas... :)) Anyway, people are also asking me questions. Some general- where is the house? Are you excited? What are your feelings? Are you settled? Then there are some people who I seriously have to stop myself before the sinful nature in my takes over. One has really stired in my for a couple of days now. A person approached me and with the comment of, Oh I guess your settling down and giving up on God to have anything else for you. As if that wasn't enough, continues by telling me that he was suprised I would give up on getting married top by buying a house by myself. Excuse me? Well as much as you want to get married I can't believe your giving up on that too. WHAT? (Can you hear my voice go up---yes I had one then) Well if your buying a house, means your settling and satisfied were you are and don't need anyone else and not looking to get married. So I couldn't hold it in, the question came out, I said really? Not in the believing way- trust me! So then it started back and forth. With him also saying, well at least your around older people so when you don't get married you can just stay there forever. Okay- this went from chitchat to war! Don't know what I didn't but I guess I'm glad I stired up satan for him to attack me like this. So I finally made all of my points clear.
1. God is amazing and providing everything and I'm completely trusting in Him. Doors have opened and doors have closed and I'm okay now with all of them. It's been a road, but goodness who doesn't travel up and down hills. God is showing me each and everyday more of Himself and I'm completely in awe of Him. I'm not in the slightest giving up on Him- but on myself maybe realizing that I can't live or do things on my own.
2. I am very happy in my house, wouldn't change it. I understand and fully believe without any questions what an amazing God thing it was. I'm getting settled in my house but not settling in life to not change any and everything.
3. Finally, my point about marriage which I have shared many times. I right now don't have time for a relationship. Not because of work or anything but because I'm not where I need to be. I don't have time to focus on someone else in that way but instead continue to let God clean and pruify and prepare me. I have no doubt that when I'm ready God will provide and bless me with the Godly man and leader that I so desire. Until then I'm trusting, not giving up, not- not believing.
You might be asking why are you sharing all of this? Well truth is I had to get it off my chest. I let it eat me alive for too long without putting it out there. I started doubting myself and letting Satan have a moment's thoughts. I need your prayers please. I don't want to be beyond questions at all. In fact, I like questions and to be challenged and made think about things that sometimes we just fly through. I don't have a problem with that at all. Maybe that is what this person was trying to do. I don't know and maybe need to ask. However, I desire God to continue change things within me. I don't want to be on this journey alone without you or Him. So please pray about what ways you can assist and pray that these will continue to be works not only that I say but that I continue to live and breath.
Sunday, May 24, 2009
1. I'm so glad God knows me and loves me enough to speak to me in a way I can understand. I'm such a visual person I have to see it to get it sometimes. Several weeks ago around Easter I was praying through some situations of disapointment and frustration. I just wasn't able to make sense of things going on and understand the feelings and thoughts I had. So I had faithfully prayed that God would show me what I was doing to make me feel this way and why wasn't he removing it. Then it happened- He did what only He can do and showed me. As I was backing out of the apartment, headed to church one Sunday morning this lady was pushing a stroller. I had seen the women several times before but she was kinda old and I didn't know she had kids. Well the closer I got to her, I realized she didn't have a child in the stroller. A stroller is normally something you place your most precious posection in and secure. Well this woman had another idea. She put her trash in it! Yes, you understood, she put her household trash, a couple of bags in it and was pushing it; just like a proud mother would do her child. God clearly spoke and said---"That's you!" I rememberly clearing saying outloud, WHAT? I heard over and over again, "That's you!" As I came to the stop sign I'm still following the woman as she dumps the trash in the dumpster and walks away to the mail box I am driving out of the complex. I noticed though she forgot a bag under the stroller, I wanted to roll down my window and tell her but was speechless at the same time trying to figure out how that was me. Then just like a light switch it hit me and I became overwhelmed realizing that was me. I had just seen myself clearly the way God does sometimes. I push and carry trash with me for so long and let it build up till I become attached to it and want to hold it tight and secure. I want to display it as a badge of honor instead of a badge of humlity and brokeness; after all were talking about trash! Just when I don't see clearly and can't understand why...thinking to myself I've given everything. Within some crack of me, I'm holding on and hiding something. I might not have it my visual area with my arms streched out wide to it, but nonetheless, it's there. So as I might have mentioned before I'm a slow learner. I thought about this lady, wondering why she put push her trash in a stoller, does she even have a kid, was she a Christian, on and on. So now several weeks later, I'm still thinking about this women and how she was used in my life. I'm asking God to search ever part of my life and find that trash that I might not be aware of. It's a good thing- hard but good! I think it's too cool how God knew what would make it click for me. Now I will never forget the picture in my head of that lady and try daily to replace it with myself.
Are you holding on to your trash and securing it close to you?
Tuesday, May 19, 2009
Front of the house with my garage---can I say I love being able to pull up and not have to worry unloading my car or anything.
I will be posting pictures of the other bedroom, study, back yard and then my bed and bathroom soon. Still working somethings and hanging pictures and that type of stuff but for th emost part I'm settled.
Saturday, May 2, 2009
Sunday, March 29, 2009
I'm intrested to know if anybody is where I'm at. So many thoughts have gone through my head since I've been home from VA and goodness this is it, but it wasn't until this morning I realized it. Let me know thoughts and I'm gonna start typing out story.
So I noticed today how my post have gotten few and far between. So once again, I'm gonna try to hit some of the highlights. Last weekend I was able to go see my family in VA. I flew up there Friday morning and stayed through Monday. It was a wonderful trip to see them, have a sleepover party with the girls, travel around the city, and then have mom/dad/daughter talks. Needless to say it was a wonderful time together and very much needed. I was able to go to church with them Sunday and see the exciting things God is doing there. It was so wonderful sitting there watching them interact with people and hearing them talk about the different things going on and what God has done and is doing. For the first time (still with tearfilled eyes) I'm okay with them being there. They are without a doubt right where God wants them. I miss them already and have started saving again to fly out there sooner than later.
Sunday, March 15, 2009
Monday, March 9, 2009
Yeah I know again, it's been forever since I've posted. So much has been going on and truthfully I'm just worn out!
The picture below explains my life the past several months - being molded. God is mending, molding, bending and breaking me! It's been a crazy ride but as long as I look more like Him, I'm okay with it. "Take all of me, I lay down my life"
Sidenote: I've checked and ask my roots don't look that bad normally. Not sure what happened.
Saturday, February 28, 2009
I'm so God loves me enough to run after me. God ask me everyday, "Do you know I still love you?" No matter what I do, no matter how bad my attitude is, or what happens- GOD runs to me! This past Thursday Brandy and I had the chance go to go a Philips, Craig and Dean concert. I have to be honest and say I had my doubts that we were going to get there, it took us 2.5 hours to go an hour---gotta love I-10 being closed, and then Mapquest that leads you down dark roads to a deadend! :) Anyway, we finally made it- I say that like we were late, but we really got there at 6:58 and it started at 7pm. It was a wonderful worship time and fellowship time for Brandy and I. I realized how much, you just have to escape even if it is for a couple of hours.
Sidenote: PCD might not be the newest Christian group, and yes I made jokes when we got there about them being a little bit older, however they were awesome in leading worship.
When God Ran
Almighty God, The Great I Am Immovable Rock, Omnipotent powerful Awesome Lord, Victorious Warrior Mighty Conqueror, Commanding King of Kings And the only time, the only time I ever saw Him run Was when He ran to me, Took me in His arms, held my head to His chest And said "My son's come home again". Looked in my face, wiped the tears from my eyes With forgiveness in His voice He said "Son, do you know I still love you?" It caught me by surprise when God ran The day I left Home, I knew I'd broken His heart I wondered if Things would ever be the same, Then one night, I remembered His love for me And down that dusty road, ahead I could see It was the only time, the only time I ever saw Him run Was when He ran to me, Took me in His arms, held my head to His chest And said "My son's come home again". Looked in my face, wiped the tears from my eyes With forgiveness in His voice He said "Son, do you know I still love you?" It caught me by surprise, It dropped me to my knees When God ran Holy God, Righteous One Who turned my way Now I know, You've been waiting For this day
Saturday, February 14, 2009
Bible Verses on Love - God’s Love For Us For God so loved the world that he gave his one and only Son,[a] that whoever believes in him shall not perish but have eternal life. - John 3:16
I have been crucified with Christ and I no longer live, but Christ lives in me. The life I live in the body, I live by faith in the Son of God, who loved me and gave himself for me. - Galatians 2:20
Know therefore that the LORD your God is God; he is the faithful God, keeping his covenant of love to a thousand generations of those who love him and keep his commands. - Deuteronomy 7:9
For the LORD loves the just and will not forsake his faithful ones. . . - Psalm 37:28
I love those who love me, and those who seek me find me. - Proverbs 8:17
This is how God showed his love among us: He sent his one and only Son into the world that we might live through him. This is love: not that we loved God, but that he loved us and sent his Son as an atoning sacrifice for our sins. Dear friends, since God so loved us, we also ought to love one another. – 1 John 4:9-11
And so we know and rely on the love God has for us. God is love. Whoever lives in love lives in God, and God in him. - 1 John 4:16
We love because he first loved us. If anyone says, "I love God," yet hates his brother, he is a liar. For anyone who does not love his brother, whom he has seen, cannot love God, whom he has not seen. – 1 John 4:19-20
This is how we know who the children of God are and who the children of the devil are: Anyone who does not do what is right is not a child of God; nor is anyone who does not love his brother. - 1 John 3:10
No one can serve two masters. Either he will hate the one and love the other, or he will be devoted to the one and despise the other. You cannot serve both God and Money. - Matthew 6:24
So be very careful to love the LORD your God. - Joshua 23:11
I love you, O LORD, my strength. - Psalm 18:1
Jesus replied: " 'Love the Lord your God with all your heart and with all your soul and with all your mind.' This is the first and greatest commandment. And the second is like it: 'Love your neighbor as yourself.' – Matthew 22:37-39
A friend loves at all times, and a brother is born for adversity. - Proverbs 17:17
Love is patient, love is kind. It does not envy, it does not boast, it is not proud. It is not rude, it is not self-seeking, it is not easily angered, it keeps no record of wrongs. Love does not delight in evil but rejoices with the truth. It always protects, always trusts, always hopes, always perseveres. Love never fails. . .And now these three remain: faith, hope and love. But the greatest of these is love. - excerpts from 1 Corinthians 13:4-13
My command is this: Love each other as I have loved you. Greater love has no one than this, that he lay down his life for his friends. - John 15:12-13
'Do not seek revenge or bear a grudge against one of your people, but love your neighbor as yourself. I am the LORD. - Leviticus 19:18
Hatred stirs up dissension, but love covers over all wrongs. – Proverbs 10:12
Wednesday, February 11, 2009
So you might have heard me celebrating and well, no it wasn't that! Greater things are yet to come, but not all at the same time! : ) I lost nine pounds this past week! Can I tell you how proud of myself I am. No it wasn't easy, but I faught through the emotional challenges and everything else and won---So now, I'm heading down to lose a lot more! I think I can do this, it wasn't easy but I did it and was very proud of myself. So thanks for the prayers, please keep them up. God has had one hand on my should wrapped around me and the other one over my mouth for more reasons than one! :) I give Him all the glory b/c I'm learning to escape to Him, rather than by myself- whatever I have in the refrig. (Mentional note: I have taped pictures before and after as well as scriptures all over the house: mirrors, refrig, inside refrig, closet, bathroom, you name it-I have one there or close)
Saturday, February 7, 2009
Jackson Carter Sims was born Thursday, February 29, 2009 at 3:42 pm 6 pounds, 6 ounces, 19 inches
So anyway- things to catch up on:
I posted the pictures of the trips and they were amazing! They took me out of the normal daily thoughts and made me challenge myself to come back.
Work has been unbelieviablly busy! We've added some large accounts but sadly lost a couple of employees so it's been very stressful getting everything done---I'm learning there really isn't enough time in a day to do it all. However we did go form 70+ tickets this week to 21. That is a huge accomplishment----when you not that it was really just two of us in the office. I'm proud and learning that's what matters.
Bible Study- I'm excited that I started a new Bible Study last Tuesday with Ressa. We're doing Nancy DeMoss' book on Holiness. It's been awesome and I'm excited about the next nine weeks. I know I will be challenged to be more Holy and live as Christ.
Church- Not sure what God is doing within for Dayspring. My heart is stired in a very complicated way and I can't figure it out. I'm very prayerful for the search commitment and the future of Dayspring but I don't know where I see myself. Praying through it all and hope to find peace soon.
Health- Well I started telling you about a journey for a new me at the beginning of the year. I was challenged by the book, "Are You Ready" and was very excited about the newness of the challenges ahead. So I started Monday with Medi and was very excited about it all. However it's now day six and I'm not giving up but I'm over the turkey and chicken considering that's all I've eaten and please note only 500 caleries of those a day. I go back Tuesday and really hope that I've lost some weight to encouragement to move forward. Between being sick after Celine and then going to OK , and then the changes for work I waiting until I started and so I'm calling Monday. I'm also doing the Biggest Loser Workout videos. Gotta love me some Bob Harper!
Tuesday, January 20, 2009
Sunday, January 18, 2009
Tuesday, January 13, 2009
The concert was amazing! We agreed that it was better than Vegas because it was really all about her. Yes there were dancers on some songs, she did a lot of cool video effects but it was her and not a production that is the same every night. The stage was amazing with the set up. It could do just about anything. It raised and lowered her, the band in different parts and then when you think it couldn't go any further, another part would raise her more. She changed into seven differnet dresses and shoes. She personalized it with talking about New Orleans and how she shot her first music video there. She talked about Hurricane Katrina and rebuilding the city and the lives there. She shared her heart between the songs which made it even more incridable. She was so incridable. The energy there was more than I have ever seen before anywhere. She poured everything she had into and it showed and was worth it.
Below are a few pictures from the concert. It started raining while we were walking over there so we look a little rough but oh well.
Wednesday rolled around and the the world fell apart at work. From an outage that morning stress levels were very high, several meetings and frustrations caused me to work from 6am-7pm. It was such a long day, the last thing I wanted was to be oncall, however on a positive note, I had been on already 8 days and it hadn't been bad, I only had two days left . Due to the outage I knew there was noway I was going to make it out for my training. I was very bummed but I want to show I'm a team player. Plus I needed to be at the office handling things otherwise I would have gotten all of those calls while training and that wouldn't have worked either. So oh well, I cancelled it and moved past it. I was very discouraged that I didn't keep it but reminded myself that things do happen. Even my boyfriend Bob in the book says those things happen. So I made it through the day of work. Jennifer and I have been trying to get together for a while, just to hang out and catch up. She was able to come over and it was wonderful just to be able to sit down and talk with her. I'm so proud of her as she is really pushing forward, meeting her goals with her personal life and within her job. It was a very nice calm ending to a crazy day.
Thursday morning, I woke up and just wasn't feeling right, my friend Ressa called and ask if we could do lunch, I was so excited and we went to Big Time---which I was a good girl and had tuna and a salad. It was a great time to catch up. Ressa lead a Bible Study when I was in the college group and her and her husband Keith were also our Sunday School teachers. They are an amazing Godly couple would I love and respect so much. It's always a pleasure to spend time with her and encourage and love each other. After lunch, I felt worse and by the time 4 o'clock came I was out of it-- my voice was barley hanging on and I felt horrible. I ran to Baby'R'us because to get Hampton and Lindsey the stroller for Jackson Carter who should be coming soon and then came home and seriously was in bed by 5:30. Thankfully I didn't have any calls for on call, because I was out.
Friday rolled around and goodness, as a co-worker Tracy said I showed I was sick through my eyes. As much as I try, I can't hide it. I worked through the day, and then ran to my parents when I got off b/c we were suppost to be leaving for Celine tomorrow!!! Woohooo---only a day left. Again I was in the bed by 7pm. I have say that I really don't remember what I ate those two days I was sick and really didn't care, I was just focused on getting in the bed. I just remember thinking I wasn't very proud of myself. :(
Saturday, January 10, 2009
Today is the big day, we have been waiting and excited about today for a while now. We are about to leave my parent's house to pick up my sister from the airport and spead the rest of the weekend in New Orleans. The concert is tonight and I'm so excited. I've been sick for the past three days, and gone to bed between 5:30-7 in hopes lots of rest would make it go away. Well, my plan didn't so much work but I'm getting better. Thanks for the prayers. Please pray that Kristi is safe and smart as she travels- this is really pushing it for her and of course I'm worried. We didn't think about the time frame when we bought her ticket and of course we weren't going to go without her. Anyway, I also hope to meet up with my friend Anna tonight. She is going with her mom and we're trouble together! So New Orleans or better yet Celine- here I come!
Saturday, January 3, 2009
Thursday, January 1, 2009
Looking Back and Moving Forward “2008 was Packed for a Purpose– 2009!”
I’m learning that we were born prepackaged. God looks at our entire life, determines our assignment, and gives the tools to do the job. Before traveling, you do something similar. You consider the demands of the journey and pack accordingly. Cold weather? Bring a jacket. Business meeting? Carry the laptop. God does the same things with us. Some will research and build…install curiosity and determination. Others will teach and lead children and youth ….. extra dose of management, compassion and patience. God has packed each of us for a purpose. In 2008, I believe God has packed a lot of things in me that I didn’t have before. I’ve been challenged and turning around to be change in preparation for my job in 2009.
This year was packed in many ways: Let’s go over a few:
Weddings: Julie and Zack Adamson, Taylor and Lindsey McCall, Matt and Lauren Zwitt, Renewal for Wendy and John McKinney, Taris and Corey Moorman, and Sandy and George Nelson.
Births: Ava Parker, Cochran Quads– (Lauren, Avery, Gunner, Cannon), and Natalie Duncan
Deaths: George Leggett, John Murray, and Mike Blaylock
Moves: Johnson Family, Payne Family, Hughes Family
All of these things have been packed into the daily life of the past 365 days, whew I’m tired! However that isn’t all, God had this year packed with his comfort as he has continued to hold my hand through breast surgery, sinus surgery (both which opened other doors like a heart mummer and testing), a mass on my ovaries, a nerve block, and continued physical therapy for my neck. I also can’t forget His grace through Kristi’s heart surgery as well as mom and dad’s procedures. This year has been busy! Yet, still there is more! He has secured us while we have traveled through the year and through the nation, while Brandy and I traveled to PA, and then to New York for an amazing get away, then there were the trips to Brookhaven to see Hampton and Lindsey, trips to Pinelake, FCA camp, concerts and meetings with David Nasser and then Casting Crowns. Alright maybe now I have everything packed for the year: oh wait I forget two key things: Callis and Dayspring! How could I ever forget the main thing that was packed along with the blackberry, on call, and laptop. God has packed a lot into the past two and a half years while I have been at Callis- He is moving a lot of people on now and they are traveling with a lighter load, while I’m still learning and gaining my skills. Dayspring is almost the same way, God has shown up and moved people on to further His work in other places. I’m very sadden by the loss but so proud to see the work God is doing in and through them at the different places they are serving now. All of these things were packed in 2008 to prepare me for the changes ahead in 2009. It’s going to be an awesome year! I’m ready– I can’t do it alone and God’s still going to be packing things in me, however, I’m ready to move forward. I’m ready for my job in Him and to fulfill my purpose.