Monday, November 24, 2008

My wall

Sorry for the delay in post, my world has been upside and all around. Things are very very busy! It's always that way around the holidays. I'm still in physical therapy, and getting back fully in the swing after Thanksgiving. I had a break b/c of the injections, which didn't work! Yes, I'm upset, so I'm just going to keep going because I don't know what the next step is going to be. So anyway, the week has been busy with work, some physical therapy, different activites at the church, and then sleeping so I don't get sick.
Friday night, Dayspring Women's had a Sister 2 Sister event; it as a follow up from the retreat I shared about a couple of weeks ago. Anyway, one of the ladies, Lynn shared her story and it was amazing to see the freedom she has in Christ. I've talked a lot about freedom here but I think it's two part, which I was sharing with someone this morning at work. As I accepted Christ, I became a new Creation in Him- freedom was given at the moment from the sin that held me. However, now as I am walking in my faith, a wall has been built that I still struggled to be freedom from. Yes, I am a Christian but yes I still struggle. I'm real and face real things. Sometimes I don't act all real, I put on a sunshine face, when that is the furthest thing from the truth. I build the wall: my actions, my thoughts, my desires, my behaviors, and habits. My life is just like this picture: a brick wall is all around and I can see a tiny santuary of freedom. I want that to be my home. But yet I have to chip away peice by piece the bricks of bitterness, frustration, dissapointment, hurt, betrayl, pain, loneliness, etc. away. I have to fully depend on Christ to be my everything. I'm thankful that I can see what my bricks are and give those to Christ for him to fix, as I know I can't fix them on my own.

1 comment:

Vallie said...

You just keep asking God to help you chip away at those bricks. It will happen! I love you Tiffany! You are one of the people that I am most thankful for in my life. I hope you have a wonderful Thanksgiving! Thanks again for helping out Friday night! Love you!